finally heard what i needed to hear. and while it is a pity that things had to turn out this way i am too filled with relief to be sad; finally i can let go of these conflicting feelings (a la folie) once and for all and go back to living the life i had without you. call me crazy but for the first time in a long time i feel really okay. it's strange how "get the fuck over it" is probably the best thing you could've told me. and as much as i hate to think that we had to part on bitter terms (on your side anyway, honestly right now i think i'm good) and i'm now branded the crazy melodramatic bitch i guess there was no other way i could take it. clarity was what i needed. i'm thankful for that.

kind of hope we could be friends again. maybe in a month maybe next year. maybe never. too bad what i had to say probably diminished the chances of that happening. only time will tell.

until then i believe time away will be good for me.

it's all over now. today was a wave of relief.